A wonderful morning to you !

Hope you slept as well as I did!

So what makes me such a happy mushroom today?
Well there is alot actually.
Let's see - watching the Matrix really made me feel good.
It really gave me lots of energy back.
"Syriana" drained me alot.
After it was over I sat in the cinema and just cried.
It wasnt because the story was particulary sad , it was because I realized
that it was real and honest. This was one of my clearest moment:
Realizing that this is really the world I am living in.
Do you know those situations where you want , actually need to, close your eyes towards
what is real because it would just hurt to much to keep them open.
Well this movie, "Syriana", works like matches that keep your eyes open,
so you are forced to look at the world how it is - with all her hidious , dark corners.
And suddenly I felt like I was her - I was the world. So I sat there and I cried
- cried about the pain. The violence and brutality mankind does to her.
It just hit me. I kept repeating in my head:
"This cannot be the world I am living in. This cannot be the world I live in. "
Well, but it is.
I bet now you are wondering why the hell I am still feeling happy and positive today?

Two words: "The Matrix". It is my initiation movie. Always was.
My closest friends gave me the movie poster for my 18th birthday.
Since then whenever I felt like I felt on Friday in that movie theater,
so small - so helpless - like a fragile Marionette at the end of very thin
strings, in those moments that movie helps me to feel important again.
It shows me a path - a way to set myself free.

So I am free . Free, free , freee.. and a happy mushroom . :o) (o:

There is more reasons for my happiness.
Seeing my sweetie soon is one :)

Have a wonderful day, my sweet , handsome, manly boyfriend.
/Hanni